crumpet

Happy monday! I love hot days in summer [not because I particularly like the heat] because I love the hot summer nights where you can sit for hours on your balcony staring at the moon, pretending to be someone magical in some exciting novel containing ruby necklaces and white horses-moonlight can do extraordinary things.

A crumpet /ˈkrʌmpɨt/ is a savoury griddle cake made from flour and yeast.

Crumpets are generally eaten hot with butter, with or without a second (sweet or savoury) topping. Sometimes, second toppings are added such as honey, poached egg, jam, Marmite, salt, marmalade, peanut butter, cheese, golden syrup, hummus, lemon curd, maple syrup, and Nutella. The butter may be omitted, but a phrase very commonly associated with crumpets is "dripping with butter"

p.s.I am feeling much better [if you were wondering] I'm feeling good enough to have spent the larger part of my evening reading my philosophy textbook.

to be happy now

After some lameness with the blogging world I am back- although I'm not in a much better mood.I begin everyday promising that it will be better than yesterday. that I will be better to him, that I wont get upset so easily, that i would be happier. But it never works [why does it never work?] and I get to the end of the day feeling sadder than i did the day before. for him i try to be straightforward, uncomplicated, not too sensitive- but i dont know how. I've never had to do this before. am i doing it right? I just want him to be happy. I just want to be happy.

weekend wisdom

calm

ive been having bad dreams again. But this time he is here to sit with me until i fall asleep again. Everything feels so strange- and two weeks ago feels like it was part of another life. Ive been listening to a cd he gave me for christmas, my favourite song is called The Blue sweater [i apologise for my pathetic state. as I said everything feels rather strange at the moment. things that were so obvious and certain have become unclear and im not too sure how to move forward from this point] things that make me feel calmer: roses (yes i am the girl who stands in the rose section at the nursery for 2 hours) and stretching- its remarkably effective.

I'll play the sweet sound of your voice inside my head
Like a record
And I'll smell the wonderful scent, oh, you captured within
Your blue sweater
I wish everytime you came into my mind I could
Write you a letter
Words can't contain what I feel so for now, I'll just wait 'til
We're together

sweet tuesday things

Happy Tuesday. I have waited for today to come since the end of last year...today we begin our Lord of the Rings marathon [is completely irrationally excited about this]in anticipation of the hobbit which I may or may not be counting down the days to see. Ah dear, well now you know how much of a fantasy geek I am. you were going to find out sometime. (here are some lovely tuesday things)

And the heart is hard to translate,
It has a language of it's own,
It talks and tongues and quiet sighs and prayers and proclamations,
In the grand days of great men and the smallest of gestures,
In short shallow gasps.

And I would give all this and heaven too,
I would give it all if only for a moment,
That I could just understand the meaning of the word you see,
'Cause I've been scrawling it forever,
But it never makes sense to me at all.

I will report back on my life as soon as ive had a long[ish] nap

this week in pictures

its late at night. its so hot i can barely breathe and the music thats blasting from my ipod makes me want to get up and dance the salsa [i dont even know how to dance the salsa!] what better time to post my week in pictures? having G back with me has seen my daily tea intake increase quite drastically-

and it was back to school this week. this however has had little effect on my life, ive still been reading tolstoy 'till 2am and suntanning in the garden in the afternoons. [my mom has gone nuts for iced tea and makes 2 pitchers of it every day... no one drink it so i'm not sure where it goes...]


the days have mostly just been made up of lazy sunny daydreaming times [which is a welcome change from the hellish nightmare week that was the week before]
[listening to: 'wanted to write a love song' by the cat empire]

We got acquainted on a warm summer's night top floor of your apartment was where we started clicking for the first time. And our future it was so bright. I was there to be your melody and under the impression that you would be my harmony.

much love

Being a creature who likes structure and something to work towards, I have forgotten about christmas and new year (depsite them being less than a month ago) and have moved right on to planning valentines day. In my mind I envision valentines day this year as being spectacular, in reality I know it will be little more than me slaving away in the kitchen on February the 13th and then handing out various baked goods to people the next day. nevertheless, I intend to make those 'baked goods' marvelous.

[the search for the perfect valentines day goodies continues...]