After some lameness with the blogging world I am back- although I'm not in a much better mood.I begin everyday promising that it will be better than yesterday. that I will be better to him, that I wont get upset so easily, that i would be happier. But it never works [why does it never work?] and I get to the end of the day feeling sadder than i did the day before. for him i try to be straightforward, uncomplicated, not too sensitive- but i dont know how. I've never had to do this before. am i doing it right? I just want him to be happy. I just want to be happy.