a beautiful word

waiting for the rain to come. we had a college tea today and I ate too much, why would people even put doughnuts out when they know I have the willpower of a teaspoon when it comes to them?

today I was supposed to get out of my no-work-rut and do something other than taking reading notes, but instead i crawled deeper into it by watching gossip girl and not going to gym. and by being in a state of general self loathing.

I wish you could have seen G today. gosh sometimes I forget that he's mine and then I get taken by surprise when he comes up to me and hugs me (is it okay to still get butterflies when he looks at me and smiles?)

shiny pretty things

If youre reading this at 3:30pm you'll be glad to know that monday is almost over.

(cue moaning)I feel as if I haven't had a weekend for the past two weeks and despite the happiness I felt that March has arrived the weather hasn't obligingly cooled down enough for me to wear my new ankle boots-what the heck is going on here? Everything may be compounded by the fact that I have way too much work and am frequently having to wake up at 4am to just get through the next day. [despite the moaning she really does feel very happy at the moment]

its 10days until G leaves for durban again [she puts on her nervous face]I hate him leaving but I love knowing that he's going to come back-and usually that feeling is bigger than the sadness- On saturday we had my sisters 18th birthday at our house (we're still finding glitter everywhere) and as a result we have a surplus of leftover food. this actually just means that i'm going to get fat.er.

[wedding blog trawling makes mondays bearable]

to be happy now

After some lameness with the blogging world I am back- although I'm not in a much better mood.I begin everyday promising that it will be better than yesterday. that I will be better to him, that I wont get upset so easily, that i would be happier. But it never works [why does it never work?] and I get to the end of the day feeling sadder than i did the day before. for him i try to be straightforward, uncomplicated, not too sensitive- but i dont know how. I've never had to do this before. am i doing it right? I just want him to be happy. I just want to be happy.

glitter

this is what ive been doing for the past hour. its so exciting :)

http://mopmagoo.tumblr.com/
[that means you should follow it]

Lets get lost

So, i saw Eclipse. twice, and it wasnt that bad- maybe i still have to grow out of my teeny bopper phase, but its really not as lame as most people are making it out to be-

Touch me I'm cold, unable to control
Touch me I'm golden and wild as the wind blows
And tumbling tumbling, don't go fascination
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost

Let me come closer, I'm not your shadow
With our eyes shielding from the oncoming counts
It's not hard for us to say what we should not

If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
If just for tonight darling, let's get lost
[anyway, the movie brought this song and I together, actually the whole soundtrack is amazing- in my humble un-musical opinion-]

and now I am off to venture into the unknown land that is Paarl to work at a church there*

see you in a week
love always, sarahjane

lovely stories #2

These are the kind of girls who hang dream catchers above their beds, who eat pomegranates and read old history books for fun. These are the kind of girls who take pictures of their hands with disposable cameras and wallpaper their bathrooms with pretty roses.



These girls sketch eyes and mouths and little drawings all over things, they look you right in the eye and almost through you when you speak to them.


These girls camp out in their backyards for fun, they light candles everywhere, and if you visit them at home they usually have all sorts of animals. Their wardrobes are filled with silk robes and bows and hats, they drink tall glasses of milk and snack on chocolate while they watch the sun rise.


These are the kind of girls who ride bikes through the city to the cinema that plays old movies in the middle of the day. They watch "Breakfast at Tiffanys" or "Rosemarys baby." These are the kind of girls who are quiet in public.


Do you like the story?
it goes with the lookbook for Wildfox fall 2010 lookbook.
you can read the rest of the story here:http://ilovewildfox.com